My husband left me for an older woman

I refuse to be the stereotypical bitter single mum. Her age makes it easier. She has middle-aged spread and a lived-in face and he will probably end up caring for her in a few years

Perhaps I should find it harder knowing that my husband would prefer to be with a woman more than 10 years older than me. A woman who is not far off her 60th birthday. A woman still reaching forthe henna hair dye despite her advancing years.

She is old enough to be my daughters grandmother, never mind potential stepmother. How insulting, right? And what an outrage! Im younger, a toned size 10 and I look after my appearance. The humiliation should be devastating.

But, perhaps surprisingly, it makes things a whole lot easier.

There is absolutely nothing for me to be jealous about. No stereotypical younger woman with a pre-baby bodyand not a grey hair in sight. My husbands mistress has middle-aged spread and a lived-in face. When friends first spotted them together, they reassured me that he must be telling the truth when he said nothing was happening between them. There was no way they could be romantically together as she was so old. How wrong we all were.

He still denies an affair even now, despite the overwhelming evidence tothe contrary, claiming they formed arelationship after we had split up. But the signs of an affair were there long before the sickening suspicion and then, finally, the confirmation.

I can pretty much pinpoint when itstarted. From being my husbands everything, it was as if a switch had flicked off overnight. Cold and distant, he took up golf and disappeared forhours at a time. His phone was permanently clamped in his hand, and he would need to make private work calls at weekends and when we were on family trips. All affection was withdrawn and his hair-trigger temper became apocalyptic as he clearly resented every second he spent in mycompany.

With hindsight, it doesnt take apsychologist to work it out. He felt trapped in our marriage: we had two preschool-age daughters and he wanted his carefree life back. His mistresss children are grown up, so she and he are free of responsibility or restrictions. A holiday touring around south-east Asia? No problem. A music festival in New Orleans? Lets book it. Midlife crisis complete he has even started dressing like he did 25 years ago.

I dont blame his mistress one bit. She must have thought it was her luckyday when a handsome, younger man showed an interest. Maybe she thought she was destined for a life alone, or to be stuck with men of herown generation with prostate problems and a cosy pair ofslippers.

If it hadnt been her, it would have been someone else. It is not as if he met the love of his life and had to betrue to himself. She was just an escape route out of a life he viewed as mundane and humdrum until he didnt have it any more and realised the grass isnt always greener. Of course, life with two small children is hard throw in a long daily commute and it isdownright tough. But you deal with it and know that, for a short time, you might have to come a bit further down the priority list. Instead of which, he threw it all away for a woman he will probably end up caring for in a few years.

There were weeks of him sobbing and begging to come back, calling it the biggest mistake of his life but, by then, I had begun to experience how life could be, should be fun, light-hearted and not living in fear of someone elsesmood swings. The cloud of doomhad left the building and I was not going to let it back in.

Now things have calmed down andwe are a few years down the line, Iam glad he is with an older woman. He andI arent right together, and my daughters seem to like her. Because she is a mum herself, I trust her with my children and am happy there is someone else looking out for them when they visit their dad. Better they are staying in her beautiful home than a depressing bedsit.

Granted, this wasnt the life I had imagined. The Richard Curtis world ofhappy ever after with a mum and adad in a rambling house hosting big parties filled with children running in and out. We had talked about moving out to the countryside one day dreams that were all whipped away pretty much overnight, leaving a void of uncertainty. But one thing I know is how unhappy the girls and I would be if their dad and I still shared a home.

Yes, things such as parents evenings, sports days and school shows can be hard when you are surrounded by other parents with their partners. Orwhen one of the girls has done something particularly funny or clever and you long to be able to exchange that proud look with someone who loves them just as much as you.

But the reality is, even if we were still together, those situations would not happen like that. He would be scowling and surly at parents evening, or he would refuse to talk ormake eye contact with me at sports day. It would not have been the normal interaction I see with other couples. And, anyway, the older I get, the more I realise that quite often the happy facade many couples present is very different from the reality when the front door is closed.

I refuse to be the stereotypical bitter single mum: I am a professional fortysomething mother with a very busy, joy-filled life who just happens to be parenting alone. I dont sit around swigging chardonnay and slagging off men. I love men I have three brothers and lots of male friends. One bad marriage doesnt mean its game over. Perhaps surprisingly, I dont regret my choice of husband. We were deeply in love once and shared many special times. We also created two perfect little people. One day, I hope that I will find love again, but perhaps this time Iwill choose someone who has put their midlife crisis far behind them.

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Men, we need to talk about sperm | Geeta Nargund

Stories of older celebrity fathers belie the truth. There is a male biological clock, and we have to break the taboo around it

Infertility has for far too long been treated as an all-female issue. Yet in about half of the cases for the one in six couples in this country who are experiencing problems conceiving, it is the mans infertility that is the problem. So why is it in my fertility clinic practices both NHS and private I meet men every week who have no idea of the vital role their age and lifestyle choices will play in whether they and their partner can have a healthy baby.

Reports about celebrity fathers in their 50s, 60s and older, have blinded many men to the reality that they, too, have a biological clock. For every Ronnie Wood or Rupert Murdoch fathering a child in their 60s or 70s, there are many, many more men like the barrister who came to me, a widower with grownup children who was desperate to start a new chapter in life.

He and his new partner were very much in love and planned to have a baby, but after trying unsuccessfully, fertility tests revealed that his sperm quality and quantity had already declined and that it was too late for natural conception. As a result, his wife had to undergo IVF treatment, despite the fact that she did not have a fertility issue herself. Having tried treatment, the couple eventually gave up on the idea of having a child together.

The headlines dont tell the real story:the likelihood that fertility treatment may have played a role. Theconcept of the ticking biological clock is a well-worn cliche when appliedto women, but men need to wake up to their ownclock.

Advancing paternal age is linked with an increased risk of psychiatric and academic morbidity. Scientific papers underline that, from the age of 40, and especially from the age of 45, the quantity and quality of a mans sperm decline. In this age range we see an increasing number of genetic mutations in sperm. This means it takes longer for a man and his partner to conceive, and there is a higher chance of miscarriage. The actual figures come as a great shock to many men. It can take five times as long to conceive where a woman has a male partner over 45, and the risk of miscarriage is twice as high in women with male partners over 45 compared tothose with partners under 25.

There is also a greater risk of conditions that include dwarfism, while children born to men over 45 are five times more likely to have an autism spectrum disorder and 13 times more likely to be diagnosed with ADHD.

We need to break down the silence, improve education and give men the opportunity to open up and discuss a topic that can be as painful for them as itis for their female partners.

Outside of the effect of age on fertility, men must understand the role played by lifestyle choices. Smoking, excessive alcohol intake, using recreational drugs, poor diet, a sedentary lifestyle and being overweightall have a bearing on spermquality and quantity. And while many men attempt to live a healthier lifestyle once they and a partner start trying for a baby, it takes the body three months to create new sperm, so to guarantee their efforts are worthwhile they should be making changes many months ahead of time.

When it occurs, infertility is as devastating for men as it is for women. What do we need to do to make sure those men get early advice and to try to reduce the number of men who have to go through this heartbreak?

Ive long campaigned for better fertility education for both men and women. I have pushed for fertility to be added to the secondary school curriculum so that young people men and women understand the factors that affect their future fertility and will be in a position to make informed choices to protect it.

We know sex education works, weve seen levels of teenage pregnancy plummet as a result of good sex education. Now we need to apply the same principle to fertility. So we must keep challenging government and educators to also include information on fertility female and male in the curriculum.

We also have to remove the stigma attached to male infertility. High profile, global campaigns like Movember have done stellar work in raising awareness of prostate cancer, testicular cancer and mental health problems. Mens fertility issues need the same attention.

We have to open up the conversation provide information and normalise thetopic as one that men can talk to each other about, devoid of embarrassment or shame. Theres still a misguided macho kudos attached to the idea of the60-year-old new father whos still got it in him we need mento know that this is not the norm, and the risks that late fatherhood can bring. The impact of a mans age at conception on the health of the offspring cannot beignored.

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